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Thursday, May 26, 2005
Stressful Thursday

   Whaaaaaat a day!.... wheeewwwww.... quite busy indeed. I just finished doing  my OSPR job and I am learning to like it though... I learned alot today from that job... sometimes it is really critical in assesing documents for customs, you have to know thier real value, the real item description as well as the quantity, it's weigh and declared value... there are some shippers who until now don't know how to fill out forms and can't give right and exact location and address of their consignee which is supposed to be... sigh... hayyy... with this kind of infos in the package documentation it gives us really a very hard time to sort this out... well, that is our job to do but to correct all details, ring consignee as well as the shipper to double check information....

   I received mails from friends today, reading those mails uplift me and easen the stress that I'm feeling. Their stories from the distant shore brings me closer to them... A dear friend of mine wrote me the other day saying "Life is a Shit!"... I wrote back and gave him my thoughts about what life is for me.....let me share it with you.....

Date: Wed, 25 May 2005 18:19:10 -0500 (CDT)
Subject: Dropping by to say "HI"    

      Received mail from you... hollahhhh.... replying on your letter... my new job is so so easy... LOL..."No Sweat"... well being a customer agent is indeed an honorable & noble job... may be you ask why? It is because you are dealing with the client, extending to them whatever you could do to help them out about your company's service... and you are not just building a communication but a good and lasting relationship and partnership to meet both ends.. see noble job isn't it?... even though they are screaming at you, cursing you, yelling at you and even stepped on you, you still manage to serve them with smile and giving them the very best that you could do which what we called an extendted customer service which is our goal to do the extra mile beyond ..  

      Now let me tell you, that your job is not "JUST" a customer service agent... it's not an easy job... and don't tell me that "Life is like a shit"... I personally do not believe on that... life for me is the very best thing that I could have.... Of course there are times that we went into hardships and trials and you wanted to give up, yet there is always hope for a better tomorrow... there is always reasons to live.. reasons that kept me going to look forward... reasons to keep me smile,  reasons to make me strong and of course reasons to make me happy... Dev, alot of reasons is there... you just have to look around you to see what reasons are those...Now see, I learned to appreaciate life which I almost ended last 2003... If I died way back then, I may not come to know you... I may not come to know Avin & Anand and of course the beautiful Malaysia... I will not be able to write this because I look "life like a piece of shit" way back then....But I did not loose hope... I love life now... I enjoy life as free flowing... we only live once and that I have to live life to the fullest...   
   Well.. well.. well... hope I haven't given you a hard time reading my mail to you.. too long isn't?... and I do apologized if I sounded like a preacher again... I know how you hated it.. I'm just saying my opinion about things... so bye for now...


   I believed that what we have right now is a chance.... another chance to improve and be better, to finished what has been started, to say unspoken words to be heard, to do things that we have to, to move forward and not to waste chances that we have for the rest of the day because "Tomorrow is not a promise but a chance".... I learned somethings and still wanting to learn more because for me everyday is a learning process and my everyday spent here on this earth is a preparation of my new life in the presence of the Father.... I will be living once and there is no 2nd chance and if I wasted that chance i know I cannot bring it back just like before.... that is why I treasured every moment spent with my life.... I don't want to have idle moments because I want productivity and I believed it is what the Lord wants from me as well, that in everything that I am doing will be done for God's glory.....

   Dear Papa Jesus,

   Let me praise you for this life that you have given me. I thanked you Papa that you let me have another chance to improve and be better, a chance to share your glory to others and to let your presence be known to people that I worked with everyday... Thank you for that chance... I know that there are times I did failed you and done things on my own free will, forgive me Papa... I let you handle my life and be God that I may not do my own will but letting Yours be done into my life.. give me a heart to follow you as always Father and give me an undivided heart... You are my joy and my ultimate reward and that Papa be upon me as always... Touch the hearts of my friends and let your presence be known to them in one way or another.... Thank you so much for everything and with great joy Papa I am lifting all of this in Your Name.... Amen.....   

Posted at Thursday, May 26, 2005 by Star-Tariray
LeT mE kNoW UR tHoUgHtS.......  

Wednesday, May 25, 2005
Heavy Wednesday

   Done doing my new job.... received mails from my friends and did reply to all of those... I was wondering about my other friends whom I never heard of... what happened to them? what are they doing at this very moment?... are they all alright?.... my mind were full of thoughts of them...

      Another day will pass again and right now I am in the middle of the week, indeed time flies so fast. I can't think right today... I don't know why? I have this friend of mine that really troubles me... she's one of my closes but when I returned back from Malaysia she seemed so cold and distant... so near yet so far... I don't know why and really can't think of the reason what did I have done and why things gone sour... all I can do right now is to pray for her and for me as well... I'm checking my self if I have done something wrong as well but really can't think of anything...[deep sigh]....

   I already got a confirmation from my supervisor that I'll be in the graveyard shift by next week... that's alright with me... I don't have a choice actually but anyhow I'm trying to like and to love my new job... e-mails and news from a distant shore lighten up my day... actually it did my day complete....

   Don't have plans at all for next month... ha..ha..ha.. next month would be my natal day.... I'm not getting any younger actually... 

   Dear Lord, 
      I thanked thee for everything that you have given me... you know what I'm feeling today Father... and that indeed I have a heavy heart for this friend of mine... please take this away and be upon me. Forgive me if I have done something wrong to my neighbor... forgive me Lord.... I'm lifting everything into your care... in this I beg and I pray in Jesus mighty name... Amen...

Posted at Wednesday, May 25, 2005 by Star-Tariray
LeT mE kNoW UR tHoUgHtS.......  

Tuesday, May 24, 2005
My Malaysian Friends

   It was during my stay at Malaysia that I gained wonderful friends... Friends that I dearly treasure, friends that I can talked things with, friends that I hang out with, friends that bridges the gap of one's culture, traditions and race.... Friends who cares no matter what is your standing in life, Friends who will stick to you through thick and thin, friends who cares and friends whom you wishes to be with no matter what...

   These are my Malaysian friends that I met and gained for my short stay in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia..  I came to create poems dedicated to them and let me share it with you...   

* More than End *

Little things does matter
Simple things could do
They say it just a matter
And not so many could do

I tried to break what's matter
Unleash and go beyond
But then he started to be bother
And does his worry came

I tried to fix what bothers
So this his worries end
Just wanted to assure
That you matter more than end...


There is nothing....
much purer,
much lovelier,
much colorful,
much sincere,
much enjoyable,
and nothing much meaningful
being a Friend to someone
and having a Friend as Lovely
As You....

Poem dedicated to Alvin Anand "KOKO" Jeyamohan 
May 18, 2005 - Thursday / Poem Re-write Date
Bayview side - Port Dickson
Sealed with my kiss

May 6, 2005 - Friday / Date Poem Created 
V-source / Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
9th Floor / Seat-in beside Annie
Done during the coaching process


* I Never *

I never knew
Beyond my thoughts
To met a friend like you

I never ask
From God above
To give me one, it's you

I never dreamed 
That you will come
To share these things with me

I never felt
This way before
How happy I have been

I never want
This moment to end
But I can't stop the time

I'll never let
This time to pass
Without you knowing, what's inside

I'll never wish
that you'll never know
How much, I have treasured you... 

Poem dedicated to Dev  Anand Daniels 
May 18, 2005 - Thursday / Poem Re-write Date
Bayview side - Port Dickson
Sealed with my kiss

May 9, 2005 - Friday / Date Poem Created 
Crown Plaza Hotel - Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
8th Floor / Study Table Room 822 
Over-looking the Famous Petronas Tower
1230 in the morning

* Cherished Friend *

God must have known, there would be times
We'd need a word of cheer
Someone to praise a truimph
Or brush away a tear

He must known we'd need to share
The joy of "Little Things"
In order to appreciate
The happines life brings

I think He knew our troubled hearts
Would sometimes throb with pain
At trials and misfortunes
Or some goal we can't attain

He knew we'd need the comfort
Of an understanding heart
To give us strenght and courage
To make a fresh new start

He knew we'd need companionship
Unselfish...... Lasting..... true......
And so God answered the hearts great need
With Cherished Friend like YOU!....

Poem dedicated to Avin ~ BeeBoy~
May 18, 2005 - Thursday / Poem Re-write Date
Bayview side - Port Dickson
Sealed with my kiss

   My sincerest appreciation in all the things that you have done to us during our stay @ Kuala Lumpur... Time surely will pass and we will meet new friends, new people from different walks of life... but you guys will never forgotten and will always be remembered..... I'm lifting everything to the Lord that He may bless you friends with more than you ever given us... that he will prosper the works of your hands and be upon you as always...

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